Learning to NOT hate my body...

This is the current theme of my life - I am at the lightest I've been since years before my daughter was born.  Yet I've never been more critical of myself as I am currently.  I love that I have been able to drop 17 pounds since January and have kept it off!

 In addition I am finding that I LOVE working out every day and have not missed a day since starting 21 Day Fix on April 7th.  As of today I have also started LesMills Combat and I'm loving every part of it!  Tonight I was also able to start MyYogaPro - a Kickstarter site that I came across through DoYouYoga.com - TOTALLY amazing!  Plus I've started a more clean eating type of diet for me and my daughter - all things to be proud of right?

 I wish, it seems that I'm more upset and critical of myself then before and I'm not sure why.  It would seem that the more inches I lose, the more weight I lose, the more I critique myself.  It doesn't make sense - I'm enjoying all aspects of working out and have even become a BeachBody Coach - I FIRMLY believe in the program and all aspects of support that they provide.

So new goal - coming up on a long weekend here in Al Ain - is to work on being happy with what I have - that is what we're taught and I'm trying to teach my daughter - to be happy with what we have been given.  I have abused and used my body for the last 30-something years (nope, not telling) I can't expect to undo that damage in the span of a few months.  Instead I need to take time and enjoy the process -

Mr. Magorium was a very very intelligent man and should be recognized as such - Life IS an occasion - our job is to rise to the occasion and enjoy the journey that gets us to that point.  That is what this weight loss/health journey is about.  My goal is to take the long weekend coming up, enjoy my workouts, my daughter and become more comfortable with myself and loving all parts of me again.

Mother's Day Yoga

Ok I'll admit it - I'm a HUGE Bad Yogi Fan ( http://erinmotz.com/ ).  I love her yoga routines and yes I helped on Kickstarter to support MyYogaPro - what can I say I'm a big believer in having the ability to do yoga at my fingertips!  For Mother's Day Erin Motz sent out an e-mail with a special Mother's Day Yoga Class.  I will say I feel better after completing it!  But I always feel better after yoga - it's just one of those things ;-)

Today marks Week 3 Round 2 of the 21 Day Fix and I'll say I am trying to complete double workouts every day - either with running, yoga or one of the Team BeachBody DVDs that I have.  This may be extremely difficult but if one doesn't have goals in life what does one have, right?  The key is sticking to the food on the fix - it's how I lost 5 pounds the first week - but I'm not so good at that so I'm working on the ability to snack on vegetables instead of crackers, chips or any of the stuff I'm used to.  IN fact I have even had salads for dinner the last 2 nights - some may think this isn't a big deal but I'm VERY much a carb based eater and this whole challenge has helped me to look at food differently.  I'm hoping to one day see food as fuel instead of therapy.

Part of the key to this is to continually look at my daughter and see the example I'm setting for her.  At first she was against the "real food" but she is slowly starting to enjoy the variety of food and want to see what else she "likes".  She's tried snap peas, snow peas and asks for cauliflower ;-)  All things that makes this Mom happy.  We're not perfect but life is a journey and our journey is still going strong!

Mother's Day

I never would have thought that my life could be altered by rethinking the world of food but it has.  B and I went to a Mother's Day breakfast this morning at a wonderful french place.  It has amazing fresh croissants, eclairs, pastries, etc!  Happily I did not have one - I did have one bite but not one whole croissant, pastry, etc.  Between being aware of what I'm eating and what my child is eating we are making small but important changes to our overall health!  This is amazing to me!  Plus I haven't missed a day of working out since I started April 7th!  This has been an amazing step for me.  I STRONGLY believe that every day is an opportunity to be successful and each success is measured any way you want it to be.

 I think this quote by Kara Groucher helps explain it all - the little successes in life is what makes it worth it.  It's not the race time finish - as much as they help!  It's the good run you get that one morning or the day when you feel every negative aspect just slide away as your workout goes the way you want it.  Life is a journey and each time you take a step forward there will be set backs.  That's the way life works - there's nothing wrong with it.  But the key is forgiving yourself and moving forward.

My greatest strength is building a support system that makes it possible.  Building that system is part of your success.  Being a mother to an amazing daughter is part of that.  At the age of 4 (today) she tells me "Mom I appreciate you". That is the greatest gift motherhood has given me to date.

The jacket fits!

Ok I'll be honest - I'm in the 2nd round of 21 Day Fix and I haven't been 100% on when it comes to eating with the plan.  I"m making adjustments daily but some days are easier than others.  Case in point - we went to brunch for a birthday yesterday although I did my morning workout (go Cardio Fix) I was not at all faithful to the plan during brunch which put me off the rest of the day.  But...I put on my orange running jacket this morning to run to the store and it FITS!  I mean it's always fit but it's been snug...and when I say snug I mean it showed every roll I had.  But now...I mean I'm amazed at the difference!

Ok not the greatest picture but you get the point.  Before I wasn't even able to wear this without rolls coming from every possible spot and now I can.  And honestly I needed this little pick me up - every day is hard but every day gets better and seeing results is the key to all of it!