Let's be honest, the parenting thing is great and horrible all at the same time. Each time I get the developmental stage figured out she moves to a new one. How does that happen?! I figured out the baby stage, she started to walk - figured out the toddler years, she went to preschool - figured out the preschool thing and she started school. Now she's almost 7 and totally independent! She has her own thoughts, her own interactions, this past summer she traveled halfway around the world with friends to spend 3 weeks with her grandparents...without me!
And now there are little to no more cuddles, there isn't time she needs me. Instead she's hanging out with her friends, she is working on her iPad (Minecraft obsession currently) and working to complete chores around the house so she can buy the things she wants to buy. Let's be honest though, where does that leave me?
That leaves me redefining myself. It's meant the last few months I haven't been blogging. Instead I've been working on freelance projects and writing a couple books that have been on my mind. Instead I've been working on me, myself and what the future holds for us.
And it's ok. It's ok that she wants to be her own person. It's ok that she is able to do these things by herself. It's ok that I want to find out my next stage of life. It's ok that I'm growing and changing. Do you know what makes it ok? She's sitting here, working on her iPad as I write this. As much as she doesn't need me, she still wants to be with me...and that's ok.
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